I have been putting this project off for years. Years. Years of finding excuses not to start to tamper down the nagging voice in my head that quietly urged me on.
I’ve come to realize, like many before me, that fear was force that was keeping me away from the keyboard. Fear of not knowing what to say. Fear of not being original. Fear of not being good enough. Fear of what others may think. Fear of having to defend my opinions. Even as I write these words I’m unsure if I’ll have the courage to share them with anybody. Fear is a powerful force.
Slowly the voice that told me to start became too persistent to ignore and I’m starting to let go of the fear. Here’s why:
In order to make a difference in this world, you need to be able to have opinions and articulate them to others. So many times I’ve come up against an issue that has stirred a gut reaction but wouldn’t take the time to put words to those feelings and set them free. These posts will hopefully help develop my voice so I can effectively put it out into the world.
Ideas don’t need to be original to be shared. This seems obvious to me now, but fear of not being original was seriously holding me back. Good ideas need to be spread and amplified, original or not. I hope to learn from, share, and maybe disagree with the ideas of others in the field. This is how we grow.
Lastly, I’m starting a blog in 2016 because the immediate nature of Facebook and Twitter posts doesn’t fit well with how my brain works. It needs more space and time to develop thoughts.
This Spring I’ll be running my fourth full marathon. I’m reminded of how slow and awkward I was when I started running over a decade ago, barely able to run around the block. Perhaps I’ll think of this start in a similar light many years from now.